Posts under ‘My thoughts’

Mooresville, NC I sat down on this padded porch chair, putting my coffee down and breathing a deep sigh of relief. It’s been forever since I have written, and the past however many weeks hit me like a wave knocking me off my feet. For a person that finds peace and inspiration in being still [...]

My first week at camp was interesting. I love it, but it’s really challenging.  I have always been around people with special needs, so it wasn’t a culture shock. My brother has Downs syndrome,  and my dad and my best friend’s mom worked with them. Often, I try to hard to psychoanalyze people with special [...]

Lately, I have been struggling with what I believe. I guess it’s because truth is not as black and white as I once thought. No, it’s a palette of beautiful colors. Truth is not hard facts written on paper, Truth is a Him, a person, Jesus. You have to know Him, and that is a [...]

I’ve been back for a bit now. It’s been interesting. It is good, I love being back with people I love, and all. I miss the kids mostly. I am still sorting through and processing everything that happened. There is a lot of changed going on in my life right now.  I am leaving YWAM [...]

I never post things by other usually, but in this case I couldn’t resist. I just started Plan B- Further Thoughts On Faith by Ann Lamott and she opens it  with this poem by Lisel Mueller. It really speaks for itself, I have no comment to make other then it ratifies  my continuing realization that [...]

Lately I have been realizing how much time in  life is lived in an attempt  to avoid pain. I “wrap (my heart) carefully around hobbies and little luxuries,” as CS Lewis stated in “The Four Loves,” eliminating all risk. I  make everything about safety- precautions, insurance. Try as I may, heartache is inevitable.  Pain will [...]

I am a tree-hugger, but not necessarily in the way most people define it. Sure, I am beginning to be more concerned with environmental issues, and I am definitely the product of the hippy era, but I wouldn’t define myself completely by that stereotype. I just love trees. Most of the memories of my childhood [...]

In class today we had 7 minutes to free write, starting with the words “When I write  I..” When I write I am transformed to another place and time completely. I just begin, I let go. I find myself floating over where I have been. I can see the past, I can maybe even see [...]

Last night I had multiple dreams where I was living inside an epic movie. I had to swim across a river to get into this house boat covered in flowers. I had to fight a tree-monster that came out of a graveyard,  and then I flew away. Writing School is beginning again,  and I keep [...]

No more let sins and sorrows grow, Nor thorns infest the ground; He comes to make His blessings flow Far as the curse is found Far as the curse is found, Far as, far as, the curse is found. I long for this to be true in my life. True like the air I breathe. [...]