Two weeks ago I married the love of my life.
As I walked down the hill to a beach on a lake where my friends and family waited, and saw my handsome, grinning groom, I felt like I must be in a dream or the happy climax of a really great movie. It was such an out-of-body experience, I couldn’t even shed a tear, so I just giggled joyfully.
It was perfect.
Perfect days are often followed by writer’s block. Nothing I say can describe the beauty of the moments I experienced. Here are the words I struggled to birth to share my promise to my husband that day.
Jean-Thomas: I knew right away:
We had something beautiful.
Something full of magic and wonder.
I knew the pages of our stories would merge together.
I knew you would be my greatest adventure,
and you are.
Our love has grown in leaps and bounds since we met 4 years ago.
And I will love you always.
With God, in me, giving me His love,
I will love all of you.
The whole deal.
I will love the paradox that is you: The creative genius. The fighter. The lover. The dreamer. The doer.
I will help you see the good in the world.
I will point out color and light when all seems dark and grey.
I will remind you to “stand on your head.”
I will help resurrect your dreams when they seem dead.
I will be that ridiculous, random girl when you need to just have fun.
I will never, ever, ever tell you to “grow up.”
I will give you grace.
I will forgive.
I will listen.
I will seek to understand.
I will hold nothing back from you.
I will always support you:
Even when the distance seems overwhelming.
and when I long for nothing else but for you to be next to me.
I will wait for you.
I will be your home.
I will grow with you,
Explore the world with you,
Create an epic life together.
I will stay in awe of this: that we get to be with each other.
I am reminded of a line from a poem that begins,
“Speaking of marvels, I am alive
together with you, when I might have been
alive with anyone under the sun…”
I know that God, in his sneaky ways, brought us together,
through all of time and space
to this very moment, here and now.
To begin our life together.
Jean-Thomas, you are a gift.
I will never take you for granted.
And I will love you with everything in me, and beyond.